There comes a time when you realize that you’re becoming your own person and that you’re becoming an adult.
A couple of days ago I was talking to a friend of mine and she said to me “I was channeling my inner Abby today.” In response to a funny comment she had made. My response was “You have an inner Abby?” And another friend in the class said “I think we all do.”
I am the chain smoker of tea drinkers. I drink tea like it is going out of style and that has been my thing recently. But it has gotten to a point where people will drink three cups of tea and say to me “I felt like you today.”
I am so incredibly flattered. I have been amazed by how many people actually like this person that I’m becoming (either that, or my patents are paying them all off.) Like most people, I just want to be loved (amen Ben Rector) and I love the love I’m receiving.
We’re gonna get a little personal and talk about my childhood.
Looking back, I was pretty viciously bullied through most of elementary and middle school. I was always the weird girl. I read more than everyone else, I liked math, I spoke Turkish when I was frustrated and I liked to hang out with the boys more than the girls. In middle school I was picked on because of my weight and that really affected me. I don’t really want to talk about that now. Ask me about it some time, if you like. But what I learned through all of that was that the person I was was unlikable.
It’s hard and those are scars I fight everyday in ways I can’t even understand. I’m still very self conscious and insecure about myself and my body and my personality. But I’m finally getting to a place where I’m OK. And OK is good for now. Getting where I am has taken a lot of work. My friends, my faith and my family have played a huge role in that and I’m slowly becoming my own person.
Mission of the Day- Make a wish. I give you permission to make a single free wish at this moment.
Question of the Day- Has this made you think about anything? Share with me!!!